Here I am, the night before the first weigh in and I'm scared. I know that I'm not going to be able to sleep tonight. When I was in high school, and yes I have to go back 10 years cause I haven't done anything like it since, in PE I had a pretty tough teacher. She didn't let us slack off at all. She pushed us good and hard. In fact, she made me cry 3 times senior year, but that's a whole different blog post. I can still remember when the PE teacher had us outside on the track, all huddled together about to start our big run, my heart would race. Like Crazy! She didn't just have us run for the whole period, she would give us challenges. Such as, run the first how ever many laps without stopping and you get a B but if you continue to walk/jog the whole time you get an A and if you ran the whole time without stopping you get extra credit. I don't know why, but I was always nervous. Is anyone else? I would think to myself, can I do this? Will I fail in front of all these classmates? Will my side cramp up and cause me so much pain I give up? Will I come in last? Will this bring down my GPA if I don't get a good grade (not that my GPA was anything to write home about, but how fat or lazy do you sound if you don't get an A in PE?) I was afraid. As we started our run it didn't take long to get over the fear and just go, but every time we were lined out on the track my heart would still hammer on my chest. And I mean HARD! THAT is what I'm feeling tonight.
I'm about to start a weight loss competition. For the next 12 weeks I will be on a team of 3 other people and the biggest loser gets money and the winning team gets money too. But honestly, I hadn't even thought about the money till I wrote it just now. I don't care about the money. Honestly. I care about weather or not I can actually do this. I've never been what one would call "fit." The summer before my senior year of high school I did drop a lot of weigh. I tried to not eat. I wouldn't call it anorexic, but I stuck to slim fast and string cheese. And I felt pretty good about my self. It was so fun to walk into a store and buy a medium size and it FIT! But even at my smallest I was still a size 10 and for some people the thought of being a 10 makes them want to go run 10 miles. That's NOT that small. It's not big either. I'm just trying to say that I've NEVER been what the "chart" considers to be a health weight. And I want to change that.
A dear friend of mine listed, as a way of giving up her excuses, to not be in shape and I thought that was a great idea! So here I go too.
Rachel's biggest excuses for being the size I am
1. Time, I feel like I just don't have the time. Having 2 kids so young and close in age takes up most of my time.
2. I am Type A Emotional Eater. But more then that;
I eat when I'm tired (sometimes when the kids get me up early and I'm exhausted my second thought after they are awake I need to get up now, is but at least I can go down stairs and eat.)
I eat to celebrate. When I accomplish something like cleaning the house or planting my garden, I want to reward myself with a treat. Or when someone else accomplishes something I want to bake them something and give it to them.
I eat when I'm stressed out. This is when I reach for sweets, usually chocolate.
I eat when I'm sad. Pastries get me here
Comfort
I could probably go on and on about emotional eating, but I'm actually getting too down writing it, so you're probably getting too down reading it. Sorry. It gets better, keep reading.
3. It's too hard to track every little thing you put into your mouth, I don't want to have to worry about it that much. I'm just going to be fat and happy. Well, how's that workin out for ya when your "fat" close are getting tight?
4. I'm so far from the "charts" weight for my heigh and age and truth be told I wasn't that light when I was a teen. It seems impossible.
5. My hair. So silly right? I know, but it is a big excuse! It takes me so long to do my hair but when it's done it's good for the next 3-4. I don't have time to style my hair everyday and it would damage my hair to straighten it that often. And I DO NOT have wet and wear hair. Some people do and COUNT YOUR BLESSINGS but I am not one of those women. Unless it were 1980! Man, I would have the BEST hair! Cause it's naturally BIG and wavy.
6. I'm the biggest snacker/grazer EVER! Some days I don't actually eat a meal! No lie!
7. I have the worst sweet tooth!
There ya go, you can have em. Those are my excuses and I'm done with them.
Here's Rachel's Plan for Success
~Join the Maple Valley Biggest Loser
~Join and Gym and work out at night after the kids go to bed
~Strength training as well as cardio at the gym
~Go for walks during the day with the kids
~Go to the work out class at church Tue and Thur (if kids permit)
~Do Jillian Michael's videos during the day
~Log all my food and exercise on myfitnesspal.com
~Journal/blog about my journey
~Fresh fruit and Veggies as much as possible
~Quinoa, salad and chicken for lunches and dinners
~Light yogurt, jello and skinny cow ice cream bars for sweet fix
~Only drink water
~No eating after 8
~ASK for help and encouragement and encourage others
~Exceed ALL Biggest Loser Weekly Challenges
~Make a new nonfood Reward System
I know that it's not going to be easy but I'm ready. I am ready.
Ready
Set
Go
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