Down 2.4 lbs
Here it is. The half way mark. Over 21 pounds so far! I'm feeling pretty stinkin amazing! It feels SO great to go shopping for clothes in my own closet! Because I have some great clothes that I haven't been able to wear since before Jacob was born! I now weigh about what I weighed when I got pregnant with him, but the thing is I'm not as small as I was before I had kids (not that I was ever small, but just smaller then I am now). It really does change your body to have children. But that's okay, they where worth it. I will take the changes that being pregnant has made since it is such a HUGE blessing to be able to have children. I just... i can't even believe it. I'm really doing it. It's really happening. I'm changing my body and changing my life. I'm becoming the person I have always wanted to be. Active, healthy, happy, full of energy (most of the time) and a great example for my children to look up to. I feel so good.
Question: Is it at all weird that I don't have a weight goal in mind? I really don't. I know according to the "chart" for my height and age my healthy weight should be 150. I know to some 150 is their worst nightmare ha ha. But the thing is, when I was at my smallest in high school I didn't weigh that! I was about 175 but I felt pretty darn good about that! I look back at pictures and I think that I look great! The thought of trying to be even smaller then that defiantly scares me, I'm not going to lie to you. It was SO hard for me to even get to 175 in high school. Of course I was doing it the wrong way, trying to not eat very much. But I don't know if I'm going to put a goal on my weight loss. Just like when I go out running, the thought of telling myself that I have to run 3 miles freaks me out for some reason. But when I leave my house and say that I will listen to my body and do the best I can that day, I can do over 3 miles without freaking myself out with thoughts of "that is so far, it's going to take forever, 25 more minutes is SO long from now I can't make it...." So for now and the last 6 weeks, I have been just telling myself that I will make better food choices, smaller portions, and be more active and do the best I can and see where it leads me. That works for me. Maybe not everyone because I think it's the #1 rule in goal setting that you define the end result. It's not that I don't have an idea of where I want to be, I just don't have a number for the scale or even my pants. Maybe that weird, maybe it's not. It sure is working for me.
Goals for the future
Be a Zumba instructor. I haven't a clue on how to do that but I LOVE Zumba SO much that I can totally see myself leading a class! That would be AWESOME!
Run a 10 k with out walking
When the time comes to have a third child, have an active pregnancy (unlike my first 2)
Buy a really good pair of jeans. I have never paid more than $45 on a pair of jeans because I didn't think my butt was worth the money for a nice pair. Plus "nice"jeans don't come in my size!
Never, even when pregnant, see the scale go above 200 ever again. (deep inhale of breath, "did she just said 200?!" yes I did, as if it was a BIG secret! It's written all over my body that I'm heavier then 200 lbs! And if you didn't know eh well now you do)
Munchies
I'm a HUGE muncher! That is one of the big reasons for my weight! As I would go about my day, if there were cereal or crackers around, I would grab a few (or a handful) every time I passed them throughout the day. Which REALLLLLLLY adds up! So what I have done, as many others have done, is make sure that I always have gum in my house. But I go one better, I have 4 different flavors at all times! So I can really mix it up. But you know what, I don't chew gum all day long, just when I feel the desire to have a flavor in my mouth. Do you ever get that? You're not hungry, you just want to taste something. Okay, maybe I'm crazy! ha ha Or I will grab a piece when I'm done eating a meal or a snack but I still have the desire to chew, even though my belly is full. My stomach has gotten smaller, which is awesome, and I can't eat as much as I used to, but sometimes my brain is telling me "there's no way you're done, you haven't chewed enough times" ha ha old habits die hard I guess.
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