Slipping

I'm not gonna lie I'm losing it. And not in a good way. I'm not sure why. I'm losing my motivation. I'm losing my will power. I'm losing my enthusiasm for the competition. Old Rachel habits are starting to make there way back. I'm not about to give up my entire journey. I'm still doing it. I'm still working out 5 times a week (but it was 7 and sometimes it was more than once in a day). I'm still counting calories although I'm not as careful about what I'm eating, but at least I'm still counting and stay with in my goal range. I've stopped drinking ONLY water and started drinking Diet Coke again although only a few times a week, defiantly not everyday. I do believe it to be true that the artificial sweeteners hinder your weight loss efforts. They make me crave more sweet things AND make me want to snack. Just like the "experts" say they do. It's true. I'm also NOT getting enough sleep and it really does make you have the munchies the next day!!! Along with the sleepy muchies, and trying to drink diet coke to stay awake sweet cravings, it is making it impossible to resist snacking. I need to get my drive back and I'm not sure how to do that. So that is why I've decided it's time to make my journey known so that maybe someone will know what to say to help me on this journey. I'm not going to give up (otherwise I wouldn't be writing this) I just want my drive back...